For Cigarettes

Appeared in BLACK HEART way back in April 2007 for Erotic Poetry Day:
 

For cigarettes

For a pack of cigarettes he let me see his sister naked

through a hole between their rooms

at first when he checked he said she wasn’t doing anything

I looked she was on her bed talking on the phone reading a fashion magazine

we waited reading comic books, he would check every ten minutes

then finally he said alright and I knelt down and looked again

she took off her jeans and t-shirt then her bra and panties

put on different underwear, white cotton for shiny black

black tights black skirt red shiny blouse high heel shoes

brushed her hair gold earrings red lipstick

looking at herself like she knew she looked good

A car honked outside and she left

we waited hours playing video games listening for the click of her door

I’d never stayed up that late before

for one of my comic books he let me watch again

she opened her window sat on the bed crossed her legs lit a cigarette

blew the smoke out into the night and watched it

undressed in front of the mirror

folding the blouse and skirt bending to put them in a drawer

her underwear smooth and shiny on the floor

she put on her white panties and the t-shirt and turned out the light

we went to bed too in sleeping bags on the floor

I waited till he was asleep got out in my underwear

went to the hole stared at the darkness

wondering if she knew about it, if she ever looked

listening for anything only hearing his slow breathing